Today’s theme was easier for me than the others it’s to write about something difficult in your life and how you are working to overcome it.
The obvious answer is the stroke but today more specifically I’m addressing the depression that is a side effect of the stroke. The part of my brain that suffered the damage caused me to suffer from depression. At first it was bad. The combination of the damage plus the trauma of going through these very sudden changes caused me to be very depressed. I cried a lot and had dark thoughts. Over the last three years I have worked on adjusting my medication. I am on anti depressants and a low dose of anti anxiety. I wish I didn’t have to be on them but I can’t function as well without them. It’s just that either them or my seizure meds make me tired and I can feel a difference but I can’t go off of anything so I’ve learned to function as well as I can
Also I regularly go to therapy. I have found a therapist that helps and I’ve learned how to handle the really rough moments where I feel sorry for myself and overwhelmed by things. I’ve learned my anxiety triggers and try to avoid them as much as possible as well as learned what helps sooth me. I have a feeling it will be a work in progress for most of my life but I’m functional and much better than it use to be. I believe going through my own depression has made me more sympathetic to those that suffer from it. It’s a challenge and I know that it’s hard to control it.